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The Year I Flew into the Eye of the Storm
I wrote this on my birthday — July 13th. Chapter 46. And maybe that’s why these words feel heavier… fuller… more honest. Because last year, on this same day, I truly believed I was flying into one of the greatest seasons of my life. A season that looked like promise, elevation, answered prayers. A season I thought God had wrapped in celebration. I didn’t know I was actually flying straight into the eye of the storm. How could I have known I was headed right into the center of
Kai Smith
Jul 193 min read


The Saddest Part
There was a time I thought the hardest part was losing people. But loss has a way of teaching you what silence never could. Because the real heartbreak wasn’t in the goodbye — it was in the slow, quiet unraveling of who I became trying to be enough for people who were never enough for me. I kept shrinking myself to fit into rooms that dimmed my spirit. I kept softening my voice so no one would feel the weight of my truth. I kept loving people who only loved the version of me
Kai Smith
Jul 182 min read


Nothing Was Wasted
They tried to define me before they ever knew me. Single mom. Eight kids. They built a box and expected me to climb inside it. Never not me They assumed struggle. They assumed lack. They assumed I was someone who needed saving. But I’ve never been a charity case. Not because life was gentle — but because God refused to let their assumptions become my story. The tragedy, the childhood wounds, the heartache, the pain that pressed against my bones — none of it was wasted. It d
Kai Smith
Jul 62 min read
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